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Life comes at you fast. If I've learned anything from 4 years of college, I've learned that. Life is about decision making, and the scary part is the thought of making the wrong decision. When I was a little boy my Mom said what all moms say, "You can be whatever you want when you grow up". The sad thing about that is, its a lie. But its not a complete lie. Obviously I cant be President of the United States, the probablility of that is extreamly unlikely. However, I can still try to be the President of the USA. Thats the difference, you might fail along the way but you got a shot. So the saying should be changed to "You can TRY to be whatever you want when you grow up." I bet your saying what does this have to do with anything Josh? Well I know now at this time, I have many decisions to make and I might have to try a few things out. Life is not finite and you dont have to know what you are going to do for the rest of your life at 22. So I dont know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I dont know what I'm suppose to do. Thats what I need to find out. And I dont care if I am about to graduate, I'm going to take as much time as I want. (That was really for Trudy.) But a message for those that I lean on, I'm going to need you...and I'm going to breakdown. Cause now, at the place I'm in...I dont know what is up from down. Its funny, you think after you get a diploma its all going to make sense. Maybe sometimes it does, but sometimes, as in this time, it makes everything more complicated. I dont know what to do, and I dont know what I want. Thats the story. I'm in the middle of rush hour and I'm hoping my exit will come up soon, and I'm hoping that I get off at the right one. |
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1. What bill do you hate paying the most? Utilities, trash is the worst
2. Favorite Place to eat a romantic Dinner? Its hard to find them, but if theres food its all good.
3. Last time you Puked from Drinking? Long time ago, like sophomore year of college
4. When is the last time you got drunk and woke up in a strange place? Um, i've never blacked out
5. Name of your First Grade Teacher? Mrs. Cataldo
6. What do you really want to be doing right now? Not have to pack, chiling at home with a new place all ready to move into
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up? a doctor
8.How many colleges did you attend before you settled on the one you graduated from? One, which SUCKED, then Ship
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now? Cause it was clean and I didn't pack it
10. Gas Prices! First Thought? I remember when I could fill my tank up for 17 dollars!!
11. If you could move anywhere where would you go and who would you take? Probably in the suburbs and I would take myself
12. First Thought When the alarm went off this morning? No alarm, but it was "Why cant I get up earlier."
13. Last thought before Falling asleep last night? Probably about my day today and planning it out
14. Favorite style of underwear? boxer briefs
15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex? same
16. What Errand/Chore do you despise? dishes
17. If you didn't have to work what would you do? I dont know
18. Sex or Sleep? Both
19. Your Favorite Cartoon Character? He-man
20. Favorite non-sexual thing to do at night with the opposite sex? Talk about stuff, and how I dont have sex with the opposite sex
21. A secret that you wouldnt mind everyone knowing: Um I dont have one
22. What was your First Car? A Plymoth Breeze
23. Your Best Your Mamma Joke? Your momma is so dumb she hit a parked car
24. Your Favorite Lunch Meat? Salami
25. What do you get everytime you go into a WAWA? Never been to a wawa enough to know, at BP however I get Cappuccino
27. Do you think Marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20? I think weddings are nice but I dont think you need the ritual to be married, so yes it is outdated
28. Who do you Stalk on myspace? Not really, I used to a little
29. Favorite Guilty Pleasure(s)? Watching musicals
30. Favorite Movie you wouldnt want anyone to find out about? I dont care
31. What's your drink? I think that would be a appletini
32. Cowboys or Indians? COWBOYS...oh yeah
33. Cops or Robbers? Cops with muscles
34. Do you cheer for the bad guys? Only if the good guy is a pussy
35. What Hollyood Star do you think resembles you best? My mother says Nathan Lane, but I think I'm more of a gay Chris Farley
34. If you had to pick one which cast member of Lost would you be? Only watched it once but I like the big guy
37. What do you want when you are sick? My bed and ramen noodles
38. Who from High School would you like to run into? I would like to see Ashley and Chad, I miss them
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now? Um, I dont know, I dont listen to the radio
41. Stifler or Oz? Oz
42. Norm or Cliff? Norm
43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons? Cosby Show
44. Worst Relationship Mistake that you wish you could take back? Dont date girls
45. Do you Like the Person who sits directly across from you at work? No
46. If you could get away with it who would you kill? Just one person...just one
47. What Famous person would you like to have dinner with? PATTI LABELLE!!!
48. What famous Person would you like to sleep with? Mu husband Hayden
49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose? No
50. Last book you read for real? That Christopher Rice novel
51. Do you have a teddy bear? No I have a stuffed Dog
52. Strangest Place you have ever had sex? In a bathroom
53. Strangest Place you have ever wanted to have sex? A classroom in Dauphin
54. How many times a day do you text? Once or twice
55. at this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship? Relationship, I'm going to school for the career
56. Do you go to church? no
57. Pencil or Pen? pen
58. Describe your favorite Day? A day with shopping with out a budget
59. Personal best record for number of times you pleasured yourself in a day? 5
60. How much money would it take for you to have sex with someone of the same sex? None at all
61. What time do you normally go to bed at night? I like around 1:00, but that hasnt happened in awhile
62. Where is your next vacation going to be? I hope the beach
63. How did you meet your last or current signifcant other? Never been with anyone long enough to consider them that, I dated a guy from Myspace
64. If u could change one thing in your life right now what would it be? to be stable
65. since we are all adults here....... bar/club or dinner and a movie? Dinner and movie, where you can make your own drinks |
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May. 19th, 2006 @ 04:03 am
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Ok so I need to say a few short words about the Will and Grace finale tonight. I liked that they tied everything up and ended it, but I do not like how they did it. I dont like the fact that Will and Grace were bitches to each other and let 14+ years go by without anything. That made me incredibly angry. I mean COME ON!!! Lets go back to the huge blow up of the 5th season...um that lasted about well 2 episodes. I can not believe that they would let 14 years go by. That was stupid. I thought that the Jack and Karen thing was nice, but it was also weird, it felt not right. Jack was no longer Jack. Karen was of course still Karen. Jack was like eccentric old Gay man. No no no. Jack is crazy, you dont change that. Then their kids coming finding each other and then married and bing bam boom friends again...far fetched. I understand they were doing the whole fate thing, but I didn't like it. It reminded me of the Mad About You finale, they got divorced after the whole show was about them being together, then in the last 5 minutes they fall in love again. The show is about these two being great friends, then in the finale they throw that out the window. Yes things change but you can change with them. When you have kids and grow up friendships get hard but you work on them...argh. But, I loved the fact they BOTH had children.
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I watched Memiors of a Geisha yesterday...I liked it, but there were Asians in it. I didnt expect not to like it. I think that it was good however. It was beautifully made, Michelle Yeo was AMAZING in it. Zang Zi Yi did ok, she can't really speak english that well, so it was odd when there were others around her that could. And it was odd in Japan everyone spoke engish, but would say things here or there in Japanese...that was the oddest thing about the movie. Easter was good, I missed my family. But I dont like being home that much. I love the fact that I get to visit everyone, but I hate staying in that room at my parents house. It weirds me our, and I hate it. Its like haveing to step back in time, when I've already closed that chapter in my life. Also, they dont like acknowlaging that I'm a homosexual, and I have to be silent about it. Its like this unspoken rule. I hate that feeling, its like whatever I have to say about myself must be censored, and they think thats ok. Thats what burns the most. Its like I'm out of line, I'm the freak and the messed up one. I dont know why they do this but they do. Maybe they dont understand what they are doing, which is most likely whats going on. Cause they are not at all hatefull people, their very loving, but I came to see if I didnt know them as my family I prolly would give them the leeway I do. Its like I'm torn sometimes because I'm not ashamed at all about who I am, but I feel like by giving in to them I'm sending that message. I'm split down the middle, I love my famlily, but I'm so angry at them at the same time. I think you've had time to deal yes its not what you want, but its not a bad thing. Being gay is not BAD. Its just like being straight, well not just like. Its like I dont know what to do to show them, hey what you think is wrong. Cause I'm right, I'm right. 100% right. Their wrong, everyone who thinks that gay is bad and sinfull and wrong is wrong themselves. Oh and your intollerant. And the fact that my family "tolerates" it makes me sooo angry. I'm like tolerate what? What is there to tolerate. I tolerate that your all uppity christians. I dont go to church either, which they think is some wrong thing. And what I say is I'm not going to step into an institution that condems me for who I am, and how God made me. Even if it isnt to my face. I'll tolerate my family cause they are my family, but I'm no longer tolerating anyone else. I'm done, I'll educate, I'll talk to people who dont think the way I do, but I think your wrong and not only wrong, I also think you are intollerant and judgemental. If you think that gay is wrong I think straight is wrong. Take your heads out of your asses and think about that for a second. Sorry that turned into a rant but some days you just cant take people teling you that your sinfull sodmite. It gets to you. So Fuck Off Tom Cruise, we all know your a homo and its not your baby. And you named it Suri....how gay is that!?Current Mood:  annoyed |
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No folks, I'm not talking about exercise. Even though that could help ion everyones life. I'm talking about coming out. Now I can hear you all saying "But Josh, you've already come out." Yes I have and it was the best decision of my life. Looking back and I know I was scarred beyond belief, but now with hindsight being 20/20 I dont know what I was so scarred of. Yes my Mom took it badly, but she got over it. Yes, my family treats it like a disease that you can't cure, but they eventually were like whatever. So with coming out it just takes time for the people that knew you as "straight" to know you at gay. AND the only reason is because they have all of these stereotypes in their head, and they think your going to change into a flaunting fairy overnight. Well all gay people know that is not true, you are who you always were. So why are you so afraid to come out? Afraid that your "friends" wont talk to you? Well if they dont, their not really your friends. Afraid that you'll have to tell your parents, well sadly you dont need your parents to be happy or content. I guess I'm being preachy but I dont care. I find people in the closet to be cowardly, especially if you are in your 20s. Come one, be a man...or woman. I just dont get it anymore. I dont know why people are so scarred.
Also, because of some things that have come to my attention I need to say: YOU CAN BE GAY AND A CHRISTIAN. Even though I dont understand why you would want t go to church. You would most likely be told to leave because Christian people are the most intolerant people that I have ever met. (Except those that I have told they are exceptions to this. Nicole, Devon, & Donna) I once viewed myself as a Christian but I dont really view myself as that anymore, because of the stigma that comes with that title. I dont really want to define myself as an intolerant person. I now view myself as a Believer in God and some principles of the Bible. The greatest thing about that means, I dont have to go by what some preacher on a pulpit tells me. Its a nice thing.
Also I only got to watch about 15 minutes of Grey's Anatomy...I NEED filled in. I went holy shit at the end when I saw the baby. I need informed of what happened with George and Meredeth after all the sexin went down. And what happened with Christa and Dr. Burke. So someone please inform me.Current Mood: busy |
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I was looking through one of the Spanish gay culture magazines I got from the trip. I was trying very badly to decipherer the Spanish in the articles to no avail. Then I saw it. The add that made my heart break and yearn all at once. Two older men, happy, loving, together, with a baby. I looked and almost cried (shut up Andrea). I want it...more than anything, I want to be that picture so bad it hurts. I want that life. I want that happiness, I want that joy. I see Andrea and Brian, and though I am more happy for them than I could ever be, I'm still a tinge jealous. Cause they have what I want. They have that happiness and soon they'll experience that joy. I sit and wonder what its like to be in love. To know that theres someone no matter how hard things get with stand by you and be there and say I love you. Three words that can make it all better (well not "it all" I am realistic) I'm 22 and I feel like I'm in my 80's. Where getting the mail and watching AMC are the two joys of my life. That sounds kinda sweet...lol. Watching Katherine Hepburn and Judy Garland finding love in a world gone tipsy turvy. Where the biggest problem is what dress to wear for the big event. Movies make it all seem so much better. Like the man of your dreams is right around the corner waiting for the one song to sweep you off your feet. It would be nice. Hell, it would be nice even to just dance, lol. Well I think I'm happiest playing the I love Lucy character, this being the before Ricky years. So I'm gonna go search for him. And when I find him he better buy me a lot of shit, cause thats the way to my heart. :)
Mar. 26th, 2006 @ 01:39 am
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Words I never thought I would say: Spain taught me things. It was really fun for one, but it was also showed me allot. Like I know even more that Andrea Dippner will be my best friend for life! She was so much fun and I could never ask for a better roomie! I cant think of more times that we've laughed at each other. Looking back those were the best times of the trip, me and her just hanging out with each other! I love my bestest. Going to Spain also taught me how much I am an American and how much I love that fact. I would NEVER live in another country, this trip made that crystal clear. I like how America works, and I like that I can go somewhere and not have to pay for water. I learned that I can ride a plane without dying. Now there are times that I am on a plane and think I'm going to die....but then I'm ok. I just grab the seat in front of me and pray. I learned that I know more Spanish then I thought. And can get by pretty well, even though every time I would mess up Andrea would be right there to see it. And I think that I also said to a person "I'm reading" instead of "I'm just looking" while in a store. I learned that I HATE FLAN! I dont know who came up with it...but its disgusting. Its called a sundae Spain...please learn how to make them. I learned that I love European ice cream...holy fuck was it good. I like got some every chance I could. I learned that I have a new appreciation for olive oil. I wasnt a huge fan but now I am...put some of that on bread, oh yeah. Other than the ice cream and break with olive oil...the rest of the food sucked....EW WA. Gross beyond every measure. I dont want to see any pork product for a long time. I learned that I love some of the madrigal people alot more, and that they are very cool people. The times I had with them were awesome, but even more so I got closer with Andrea and Kevin and learned what true blue friends they really are. I also learned that getting drunk with the mads is one hell of a good time! HAHA. And that the British ROCK. Josh....Josh....Josh! I'll tell you what people, karaoke has never been that fun. I learned that sadly, you cant count on some people and that they will never be what you want them to be. They'll use you and use you till they cant anymore. I never said they were all happy lessons. I learned that I love Amanda Waddell!! I think she was the person I really got to know over this trip and she is awesome! I learned that I will miss people back home, and ones that I didn't even expect to miss. I learned that I want a palace...maybe even the Alhambra. I learned that Cathedrals are boring...lol. I learned that I want to visit Germany really bad and maybe even learn some. I learned that the gay community in America is 200000 times better than the one in Europe...they suck, and not in the good way. I learned that you shouldnt run into the beach with jeans...they get wet. I learned that I can do a cross between a German and Japanese accent. I learned that I will buy shoes that hurt my feet, just cause their cute...so gay. I learned that gypsies are BAD PEOPLE. I learned that Katie Rebuck and me have things in common...lol. And I learned that I will miss Madrigals and how much its affected my life. Here are some of my favorite pictures.
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Mar. 22nd, 2006 @ 03:50 pm
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Geehz, it seems like I'm always writing serious things on here. I need to write a happy post about nothing once in awhile. But this is not that kind of post folks. I dont know what to do with my life anymore. It can change at the drop of the dime, and that fact seems to keep messing with my plans. I sometimes sit here and wonder if I should go to get my Masters...I havent thought that thought in a LONG time. Why am I wondering about this stuff. I feel like I cant move on...I'm scarred but also I dont know where to move to. Where is the right place to go? Whats the right thing to do? Its not like I have anything to live for. I mean I have friends, really great friends that I love, but they are gonna move on and have families. And I want them to have that. I want everyone to have that. I guess I'm upset because I know I'll most likely never get that. I have almost no hope anymore for anything. As I get older I cant conjure it up like I used to. I dont know what to do with my life anymore. I wish I had something or someone to live for. I wish I had what so many others have. It really hit me when I was on the phone with Trudy the other day. She said to me "I was married for two years when I was your age." At first I thought "Two years...wow she got married young." Then I thought "How mother fucking wonderful that probably was, and would be to have" I mean to be 22 and married to the one you love, she had something to live for, something to invest her life in. Hence why I'm here. I wish I could have that. I cant concentrate on me anymore. I want to concentrate on something more. I want something more. I seem to be saying that allot lately, but is true. The same old stuff dont do it anymore. Maybe I should just get a dog...lol.
Mar. 8th, 2006 @ 01:50 am
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Well I'm done writing music...I cant do it!! I was not meant to be a music major, this I now know for sure. I guess its good that I chose Psych. I'm frustrated because I've been siting here for a long damn time trying to write a simple melody for Music Theory (Which I am really beginning to hate by the way). I cant do it! I try and try but just cant do it! I think I'm really upset also because I really want to do it. I would love to be able to write good music. Gah! Maybe I'll just blame Lucy for being a bad teacher, cause maybe if I learned something I would be ok. I look at the music that Sondheim and Johnathan Larson created...how did they do it? Was it like a natural thing that I dont have inside of me. Bah on music theory and bah on this melody shit.
Mar. 6th, 2006 @ 01:22 am
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Ever ask yourself that? Where am I? Not as in where am I physically, where am I as in life and living. Ever feel like your stuck? I do, right now. I feel like I'm stuck, but worse I feel like I'm sinking...slowly sinking. Loosing air, desperately trying to get to the top. I know I have all these people around that love and care for me, but I feel more alone then I have in a long time. Alone and sinking. I'm not so much scared as I am worried. Worried that I'll sink forever...is there even a bottom? I don't know...I don't know about allot of things anymore. I'm worried that my future will crumble in front of my face...it already is in some senses. I want to be unstuck...more than anything.
Feb. 20th, 2006 @ 01:20 am
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I found out yesterday that a kid, that I do not know, that went to my high school committed suicide. Now this is sad but the reason hit home for me very hard. I was told he did so because he was gay and was treated bad at Trinity. Now I dont know if thats the whole truth but it still makes me think alot. I spent four years at that place, I was gay, I was closeted and afraid everyday. I made it out...he didn't. My heart hurts and I didn't even know the kid. I think his name was Ben...its so sad. I thought when I left maybe things were ok there and maybe there would be a gay-straight alliance one day. But I forgot how Washpa really is and how Trinity is. Its not loving and its not forgiving. Its not a place to be gay. Margaret Cho said it the best. She said to be a minority in America is like dying of a million paper cuts. These are one of the times that I am bleeding.
Feb. 19th, 2006 @ 03:26 am
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Have you ever watched Grey's Anatomy?? If not you really should...its fucking amazing. The love for this show started when I watched the "Code Black" episode. I never got to see the second part of that...damnit...but I will over the summer. For those that do not know what its about, I shall now tell you. Its about a group of residents at a Seattle Hospital, but its so much more than that. Its about life and determination and dreams. That might sound all "movie of the week" but its true. Because it is set in a hospital there is crazy drama, but it cuts that up with humor, and very smartly done. I watch this show and I think in a way its all going to be ok. If these residents can get through the hell of residency I can get through a bachelors degree, then a masters degree, and then a PhD. I know I can do this, I know I can get what I want one day. Its going to be hard work, but I can do it. I know I can do it. Weird how TV shows have some strange life changing answers with me. I want a PhD, I'm gonna get a PhD...thats the oath I make to myself today.
Feb. 18th, 2006 @ 01:30 am
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Life is really begining to BORE me. I feel like I'm not here for any general purpose, and I just go day in day out...with nothing. Nothing to really look forward to, not Spain (thats a big ball of stress), movign in with Andrea and Brian is exciting but since we dont have a place yet I'm not living that one up yet. The only good thing that happened this week is I got a job at the MSA over the summer. But I might still have to get something else if it doesnt pay enough. I hope not...lol. This is the weirdest feeling...cause I'm not sad or depressed. Just bored and that in turn makes me pissy. So I'm like this big ball of pissy queeness. I hate that. It would be fun to be happy again like I was last year. I was happy then, I remember enjoying life. This year its been sress and disapointments. Can someone say annoying! I can! Oy, well I have to finish homework for tomorrow...EW. School is a bitch too, btw.
Feb. 17th, 2006 @ 01:31 am
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For one, great, great, great Will and Grace episode. Great cliffhanger!! I am so happy that Grace is pregnant. Its a common way to end sitcoms, a main character getting pregnant. But I like how they are pretty much done with Will's story, cause they have finished Karen's also. With Stanley back in the picture, Karen's story ended. She's just now crazy Karen. Now that Will is done, he has a partner which doesn't look like he's going anywhere, its now how are we as a family going to deal with Grace having a baby. Good move on the part of the writers. It was a really nice episode in the respect also of Will's story as a whole. Its nice to see Will with someone, especially so hot! ;) It makes me, well not sad...I guess a little down.
Being as its Valentine's Day here in about five days, I wish I could celebrate it. What sucks about Valentine's Day is that if you dont have someone you cant fully celebrate it. You can go out with friends, but your still going out to commiserate that your alone. If we get down to it, its a stupid "holiday", but I wish I could be a part of it. Thats that,
This was still a pointless post, but I dont care...lol.
P.S. Paparazzi let Britney put her baby in the carseat! That way she wont have to speed away with Cletus in her arms!
Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 10:41 pm
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No as you can read in my last post Christians have not been my favorite of people recently. Well it has been brought to my attention that CF is pulling the same bullshit recently too. Now before I begin lets make a few things clear. I have friends that go to CF, that I like very much. For instance Donna J, LOVE HER. She's a great person, I know she is very involved in CF, its her nitch, and I respect that. When I say CF in this entry I am talking of those that use their faith and Christianity as a weapon. They go to this organization and I do believe help run it also. So, just to clarify, if I talk to you and say hi to you and hug you....this isnt about you.
That being said...CF is not a good place in my opinion. Mostly because of what is taught through it. I'm a Christian, was one since I was little. I grew up in church, I studied and even went to a Christian college for a year. So I know what I'm talking about. I'm going to generalize and say that most Christian founded places of "worship" are bad places. Mostly because they teach hate. Hate for those they dont understand. Now you will say "What thats not true they hate the sin LOVE the sinner." If only that was the case. If they hated the sin love the sinner, would they give looks or even ignore the pregnant teen? Would they stand outside of a woman's clinic with disgusting pictures and scream at the people going in? Would they abandon "friends" when they were finally truthful with them? This to me is not "hating the sin love the sinner". Now where this is most prevalent in my life is my sexuality. (Always seems to be about that huh?) If I hear one more gay individual say to me, the hate that CF has shown them, I am going to gather every gay I can and picket CF. This is disgusting and wrong that they tell 18 year old freshman that being gay is a choice and if they make that choice they cannot be a Christian. EXCUSE ME? What right or authority do you have to tell someone that? Its hateful and intolerable...and down right exclusion (Where is that in the bible?). Its saying we dont understand it and dont like it...so its wrong. Turn away! Its hate plain and simple. Would you be racist, no thats wrong. Would you be sexist, no thats wrong. But homophobic, now thats right on the money. You people need to open your eyes. Its sad and pathetic what you are doing. I want Jesus to come back and bitch slap you all.
And some of you that have become "ex-gays" please dont make me laugh. You now have turned that same hate onto yourself. You know I'm right, thats why it burns you so much. Its you that I pity the most, you have endorsed something that hates you, you give it money, praise it all the time, put all your time and energy into it. If anyone is living the wrong life its you. Stand up for once and say who you are and deal with it! My god! Stop being such cowards!!
Now that someone has judged you...how does it feel.
Oh and for you real homophobs out there, I got something really nice for you....
Its two men kissing on national TV!!! And its interracial!! The KKK must really hate this!!
Feb. 8th, 2006 @ 01:04 am
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Yet again those crazy southern asses called the Christian Family Right (or as I call them Intolerant Assholes) have begun to cry.
The conservative Tupelo, Mississippi-based group, whose protests helped lead to the cancellation of the network's The Book of Daniel, was ready to call for a boycott of NBC, saying the Spears-fronted episode "mocks the crucifixion of Christ" and "further denigrates Christianity" because the show airs the night before Good Friday. The AFA is urging its supporters to contact NBC affiliates and demand they not broadcast it.
"NBC is clearly mocking the Christian faith," the group's founder, Don Wildmon, says on the AFA Website. "They clearly have hostility toward the Christian faith, They absolutely will not treat Jews or Muslims in this manner, but I think they are smarting from the Book of Daniel defeat that they suffered, and this is their way to get even."
Let me chime in please....*clears throat* Fuck you!
For its part, NBC bristled at allegations it was intentionally trying to poke fun at Christians, issuing a statement chalking up the dispute to unnamed trigger-happy publicist.
"Some erroneous information was mistakenly included in a press release describing an upcoming episode of Will & Grace, which, in fact, has yet to be written," the network said in a statement, which was disseminated to its affiliates. "The reference to 'Cruci-fixins' will not be in the show and the storyline will not contain a Christian characterization at all. We value our viewers and sincerely regret if this misinformation has offended them."
Well and now it seems that NBC, are gonna be pussys about the whole thing. God this really irks me! Not just for the fact that this idea was really funny, I'm the first to admit my favorite show of all time has been getting worse each season. To me its still funny as hell and has some of the best characters of Television history, but I digress. So now they could really give Britney who needs a career pick me up a part that I believe she could do a really good job with and it would be a great last season show! No prisoners kinda deal. BUT NO! NBC gotta be pussys. And another thing where do these "Christians" get off!!! Why do you care how the gays look at you, you really dont care about how you look at the gays. Christians have been nothing but intolerant hateful people to the gay community, we deserve nothing more but to poke fun at you! And thats all it is, a joke. Next thing you know their gonna get Fred Phelps up in NBC's face.
Side Note: If you dont know who Fred Phelps is go here: http://www.godhatesfags.com/
So shut up you majority of America. Your fuckers, plain and simple. You kick people out of your churches for the sake of morality and righteousness, if you knew what love was I would be shocked. This is just another prime example of how "Christians" think they own the world.
Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 03:51 pm
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I'm usually a low key Sunday person but today was not that. It was Superbowl sunday and it almost gave me a heart attack. I seriously couldnt take it. I was all a bunch of nerves, by the end I was like HURRY UP!! I couldnt take it, and they played till the last three seconds...oy vey. I but Trudy did have a heat attack, I'm glad a little that I had no minutes on my phone, cause that means I didn't get a screaming phone call. But in the end Pittsburgh was triumphant. THANK GOD.
Bettis almost made me cry! I love that man! He's the greatest and people that dont know in Pittsburgh he helps with underprivileged kids and everything. In Pitts he is a real humanitarian. Always there to help a charity. Great man. I was happy more so that they won, so he could go out with a bang.
After the Superbowl I got to watch Grey's Anatomy. Now its amazing for just this woman being in it.
Oh Sandra Oh, how I love thee. It gave me all the crazy heart palpitations that ER gives me, but I didn't have the "Someones gonna die" feeling that I have while watching ER. Its good, thank god we got cable, cause now I can watch it! YAY!
Good Sunday, good sunday.
Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 12:16 am
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So I need to say something. I am in love with the LOGO show "Noah's Arc". I know I've blasted it in the past, saying that the men on there are very annoying and queeny and its bad for the gay community. But after watching like 4 hours of it with Hope last night my mind has changed. Its ok that their queens for one, cause they admit it. Theirs a whole storyline dealing with it. Also why I love it is that, as superficial as this is, they are hot. Except for the "sex obsessed" Ricky, he looks like a girl alot. But I love the characters of Noah and Alex, which by the way I am Alex by the way. The best thing however is Trey...omfg Trey. Here he is:
Oh and another:
This man is HOT. I love him, and also he's with the queenist of all Alex. Which is me in real life. But really their flammy (but then again arent we all at times) but more so than that their queens, which if you've ever spent five minutes around me, I am the embodiment of. I am a Queen, I admit it. But I'm not ashamed of it anymore, I'll be damn queen and if you dont like it, well then fuck you. I like this whole fuck you if you dont like me vibe I got going on recently. As I told Andrea a few weeks ago I now believe if you dont like me or agree with my sexuality, fuck you, I have no use for you. *snap*
But another thing before I leave, I really want to date a black man. I mean like REALLY WANT TO. Some racist people would call it jungle fever (fuck you btw), but I really want to....especially the one mentioned above...swioon.
Feb. 5th, 2006 @ 03:37 pm
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The latest religious flap at NBC flared after the network announced on Tuesday that pop star Britney Spears will make an April 13 guest appearance on "Will & Grace," playing a Christian conservative talk-show sidekick to Jack, the gay character portrayed by series regular Sean Hayes.
According to NBC's initial synopsis of the episode, Jack's fictional TV network, Out TV, is taken over by a Christian broadcaster, leading Spears' character to do a cooking segment on his show called "Cruci-fixin's."
OMG....I really want to see this NOW.
Feb. 3rd, 2006 @ 01:53 pm
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So, like one day till my birthday people. I'm excited for my big birthday dinner tomorrow, with the whole big (and by big I mean 10 people...lol) group. But I must say that I had an awesome night tonight, going out to eat with just Andrea and Brian, where I even got a little emotional. They are my family here, and I love them dearly. It was like the chill family dinner that I so needed. Life has got crazy yet again, and I think my body sensed it. Cause the past two days I didn't make it to my classes, Thursday because I set my alarm for PM instead of AM, and Friday it felt like someone took my head and stomach through a grinder. I think Fridays was because of stress, but I just dont know. But this has been one crazy birthday week, Tuesday I had a date...I KNOW RIGHT. That happens like once in a blue moon. When I met him with the knowledges that we wanted to meet me, I wanted to make sure it wasnt some sting by the conservative right or the KKK or something, I'm a powerful gay I know their after me. His name was Dan and he was really nice, I had a really good time. Even though I wouldn't shut up! I noticed that night that I talk a whole damn lot. Again I'm my mother's clone. If you want the details just ask, I'll tell you. I'm a bragger especially about dates cause they only seem to happen close to as many times as Oprah give a real hug (Will and Grace fans will get that one). Oh and on a Will and Grace note, did anyone watch the part where they showed the Final Episodes...OMG, what is with Grace proposing??? I heard about the Smallville episode too...I was so right. Well next year I am FO SHO living with Andrea and Brian, and I really couldn't be happier. After talking to them I got really excited and it really is the best fit. I cant wait, I also cant wait for Andrea to get out of that apartment she's in now. Yeah for family's that you create yourself, cause I think sometimes they are stronger than the real ones. I've been thinking alot the last couple of days about everything in my life, and I'm ready to move on. I see all my friends finding love and even getting married. Some are even having or at least trying to have kids! I think thats awesome that people my age or a little older are going to be starting families soon! I want that....I really do. I want love and a family more than anything. I want to stop being a kid and be an adult. I mean I'm turning 22 and what I'm realizing is that being a kid is over. I mean I'll always be a kid at heart, but I need to shape up, and become a grown up. And I want to be a grown up. Andrea was talking about how at her internship the kids look at her as a grown up and asking her if she's married and stuff like that. When she said that it really hit me....I'm a grown up. High school kids are not my age anymore, they would have to call me Mr. Hanna if I went there....SO WEIRD! I'm not Mr. Hanna, I'm cool with the kids Josh, if anything I'm Mr. Josh, not Mr. Hanna. I'm not my father. I remember when I was 15 and thought this was old...oh lord. I'm now only 8 years away from 30. They'll only get less. But all in all I want to settle down SOON. My Mom keeps telling me not to tie myself and do the things I want to do, but I think I've done all that. I mean I would love to run to New York and try to be and actor...but that isnt rational or even smart thinking. As I get older I think that I want to be a Dad and a partner to someone more than that. I want a kid, plain and simple, and I dont want to raise him or her alone, I want the kid to have two parents. Thats the plain and simple truth, I want to be in love with my husband with a kid. Have a job and come home and cook dinner and put in on the table with the man I love to my right and the child I love to my left. Now if my job was a sitcom actor and home was in LA, I wouldn't complain ;) Life is truckin along, there are always bumps along the way but I realize that I always will come to the light at the end of the tunnel.
Jan. 28th, 2006 @ 01:43 am
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